2 weeks for them to fall in love. It was real and it happened.
3 weeks for me to completely fall for you and you wouldn’t believe it. Believe that I was completely wrapped up and stuck. Believe that you crushed me. Believe that I’m still hurt after all this time.

I know that absolutely no one reads this, but I’m still going to let this be a cathartic experience for me. It seems I cannot shake this feeling of complete and utter loneliness. What I wouldn’t give just to have someone hold me and help me forget. I know that you’re never going to be near me again, and I know that you don’t understand how I feel about you, but I’m just ready to forget it all. I know that I still want you in my life, but I cannot let these thoughts of obsession control me anymore. I have been almost possessed by what I wanted for about six months. I let it haunt me and control almost every aspect of my life. You called me insane, and maybe you’re right, but it doesn’t take away from the fact that you planted untrue and unfair thoughts into my mind. I let them blossom and overtake me. My mistake. My heartache. I say I’m past this all, but thoughts of you still plague my mind every night. You say no person should feel like this after such a short amount of time, but do you forget the 9 months before those 3 short weeks? There is so much more to feeling for a person than a physical aspect. The way I feel about you will always be there, but maybe I can forget that it exists. I just need someone to help me forget. I’ve done as much as I can on my own, but there is no feeling like the one of complete security. The embrace of another human being. The feeling of another person’s bare skin against your own. I need that. I need to shake this lonleiness. I need to forget. I want to forget.

This brought tears to my eyes today. Real tears. The love and passion I have for music is so intense, I could never imagine my life without it. It is the one thing that can make me feel so many emotions at once and always leave me satisfied.

I would just like to be in my room, listening to sad music and cuddling with my dog. I have no idea what I’m doing anymore. I don’t know what’s going on. I really dislike this.

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
2. Who are you in love with?
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
10. Are you hot?
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
12. What are you wearing right now?
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
14. Last food that you ate?
15. Where were you last week at this time?
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
17. When is the last time you ran?
18. What’s the last sporting event you watched?
19. What is your favorite animal?
20. Your dream vacation?
21. Last person’s house you were in?
22. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
23. Have you been in love?
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
25. Last play you saw?
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
27. What are your plans for tonight?
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
29. Next trip you are going to take?
30. Ever go to camp?
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
32. What do you want to know about the future?
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor’s visit?
35. Where is your best friend?
36. How is your best friend?
37. Do you have a tan?
38. What are you listening to right now?
39. Do you collect anything?
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
43. What does your last text message say?
44. Do you like hot sauce?
45. Last time you took a shower?
46. Do you need to do laundry?
47. What is your heritage?
48. Are you someone’s best friend?
49. Are you rich?
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?

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Going to see City and Colour on Sunday. By myself. I’m so cool. Not :( haha This is like THE perfect date show, and this girl is going alone and paying for her own cab fare. woooo. :/ Oh well. Dallas will be enough for me.

Oh Mike Green and your incorrect grammar and ridiculous saying. <3

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What I wouldn’t give just to spend one more night in your arms. One more night with few words. One more night of complete comfort. One more night of staying up until the sun rises. One more night of you softly kissing every inch of me. One more night of you.

COULD HE BE ANY MORE ADORABLE?! The answer is no.

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